The rain outside my window

well, this verse has got to start somewhere
but im too lost in the middle of nowhere...
where the past is like a present that the present can't face
and the future is a race that the past can't chase
as of now, im just a guy who's stuck back in time
tryna make sense of his life through a wicked rhyme
and there was a time where i didnt need a couple lines
just to pass time
cause i had a girl on my side that could stand by in every fight
till the day she decided to surrender to the fight of life
and now this lifes a threat more then a given right
the day i see her pretty eyes is when i'll find my light
but for now, i look up to the sky and tell her she was right
tell her, about a world full of lies, where all i hear is cries
of people who just had enough
but i wont have to cry and i dont need to try
its a good thing she made me tough
but see even i, i go ballistic, i lose control and i start cursin
then i pick up this pen and damn... im like a whole new person

Love.

your so close to me, yet so far away
never say good bye cause i just want u to stay
looking back at the past cause theres nuthin left to do
the time when we were one, the time when it was just me & u
laughing to the stupid jokes
yelling at who gives u pokes
dreaming of what was once just a dream
lighting every corner cause thats wat it seemed
a smile is wat it took to make me fly
the feeling that would always make me shy
late night text and phone calls that lasted all night
we'd talk about everything yet we'd never ever fight
its a strange feeling that could not be compared to anything
i loved every bit of it because it meant everything
small moments that u remembered without my help
surprised me at the edge cause happiness is wat i felt
i close my eyes and your all i see
the one i'v dreamed for throught out destiny
i'd fall over and over again for u every single day
just to hear those three words that you would always say
your name has been tattoo'd on my heart where it will never be erased
never to be forgotten never to loose its trace
singing all the time is what reminds me of you
how can one forget to breathe so how can i forget you
i'm not perfect but i noe ur one of a kind
there's no one like you cause your one thats hard to find
stop... take a breath.. take it all in
u had me from the start so where can i begin
speachless is wat you leave me, thinking of wat to say
wondering wat to do so i have our song on replay
this is just a little bit, love over flows my heart
smile for me forever because thats where it all starts<3

I am Afraid.

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart, locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.

Friends

It's amazing how you realize; when you lose someone, you get mad at yourself for not
saying the things you could have said a million times. You take for granted all of the days spent doing nothing, when you could have been with that person. Anyone can be taken from us at any point in our lives but we always wait until they're gone to say the things we never had the courage to before. At some point you learn to accept the fact that the people you wish wouldn't change, do. Goodbyes hurt, but only mean forever if you let them. Pictures never replace being there and nothing lasts forever. But you also learn to laugh until your stomach hurts, act so crazy that people think you're high, and live for the days with your best friends; you learn to just have fun because life is too short to worry about change. Nothing is forever, forever is a lie, all we have is the time from hello to goodbye, you do what you gotta do, know what you know, hand on until you can't anymore and then learn to let go. As we grow up, we learn that the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken, probably more that once and it gets harder each time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You’ll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for something an old one did. You will cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, love like you've never bee hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness that you will never get back. Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right and forget the ones that don’t and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it would be easy; they just promised that it would be worth it. <3

...

If you see me walking with someone else, it's not because I want to

It's because you weren't brave enough to walk beside me

If you see me smile, it's not because I forgot you

it's because I got tired of crying over you

If you see me living again, it's not because I've moved on

It's because I hate the fact that you can live without me

So if I fall in love with someone else, it's not because I wanted to

It's because you weren't there to catch me

I Miss You

I dont wanna miss you

i wanna be with you

you were so perfect

everyhitng about you

but yet...i let that slip away

i miss your smile

i miss being able to call you "my guy"

i jsut miss YOU

and allt aht comes with it.

i miss that sarcasm fallowed by your arms embracing me and telling me you loved me

i miss feeling like i belonged in this world.

look me in the eyes and tell me you dont miss me.

tell me you let me go.

i need to hear it before i move on,

things will never be the same.

i dont forget you.

i never will.

i promise you that.

so when you tell yourself youre not loved..

think about it a little more.

think about those tears...the ones that crashed at your feet.

think about the day i said..

"i simply miss you."