The rain outside my window

well, this verse has got to start somewhere
but im too lost in the middle of nowhere...
where the past is like a present that the present can't face
and the future is a race that the past can't chase
as of now, im just a guy who's stuck back in time
tryna make sense of his life through a wicked rhyme
and there was a time where i didnt need a couple lines
just to pass time
cause i had a girl on my side that could stand by in every fight
till the day she decided to surrender to the fight of life
and now this lifes a threat more then a given right
the day i see her pretty eyes is when i'll find my light
but for now, i look up to the sky and tell her she was right
tell her, about a world full of lies, where all i hear is cries
of people who just had enough
but i wont have to cry and i dont need to try
its a good thing she made me tough
but see even i, i go ballistic, i lose control and i start cursin
then i pick up this pen and damn... im like a whole new person